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[promisedyou]

REGAIN REGISTRY

Shion Sonozaki (AU: Mio Sonozaki)

memories

Shion vaguely thinks about killing herself. (Meakashi-hen)
Information about the Oyashiro-sama curses, specifically about the construction site manager's death. (Meakashi-hen)
Shion speaks with her mother about why the old hag (her grandmother) disowned her. (pre-game, Meakashi-hen)
Shion makes her escape from St. Lucia's; just the escape itself, not any events leading up to it. (Meakashi-hen)
Shion recalls a conversation with a blonde boy (Satoshi) asking her how she writes her name. She tells him that it's written with the characters for 'poetry' and 'sound' and he tells her that her name is beautiful. (Meakashi-hen)
A memory where she was still "Mion", and swaps with her and eventually ends up becoming Shion due to this swap/mistake. (Meakashi-hen)
Shion meets up with a girl (Rika) who attempts to attack her with pepper spray and a syringe, manages to turn the tables on her and injects her and in which Rika ends up killing herself in the end, with Shion laughing at the end. (Meakashi-hen)
Shion recalls a conversation with a few teenagers (Keiichi, Mion and Rena) and threatens to kill Satoko's uncle in order to save her, since she treats Satoko - regardless of the fact that they're unrelated like family. (Minagoroshi-hen)
Shion recalls calling her sister (Mion) and learns more about Satoshi from her. (Meakashi-hen)
Shion recalls speaking to her sister (Mion) in the Sonozaki underground 'pit'; she speaks to her sister about the rumors of the pit (explained below) while her sister goes on ahead and explores, along with other various rumors and Shion's general thought on various other rumors spread in Hinamizawa about the Oyashiro-sama murders before she ends up tasering her sister in the end. (Meakashi-hen)
Shion recalls jumping from one edge of an apartment complex to another and winds up tripping and falling to her death. (Meakashi-hen)
Shion recalls making an attempt to kill herself but 'Satoshi' (a delusion) tells her to live. (Meakashi-hen)
Shion recalls Satoshi comforting her when she's crying - he asks her if she's alright, and talks to her to make her feel better - along with patting her on the head. (Meakashi-hen)
Shion remembers seeing her sister get shot by Takano and subsequently gets shot in the head herself. (Minagoroshi-hen)
Shion remembers torturing Satoko in the torture chamber. (Meakashi-hen)
Shion goes with a boy (Satoshi) shopping for groceries. (Meakashi-hen)
Shion recalls Rika explaining the details of the Hinamizawa Syndrome to her, along with the other main cast. (Minagoroshi-hen)
Shion recalls working at the Angel Mort during the Dessert Festa the whole day and dealing with unruly customers until Keiichi and friends come to help her. (Watanagashi-hen)
Shion recalls a snippet of a conversation that where she talks to Keiichi about how his impression of her might change, but he tells her that it won't ever change because she's his best friend. (Meakashi-hen)
Shion recalls a memory of Satoshi getting angry at her, yelling at her about how she did something bad to Satoko (his sister) and eventually Rena has to cut in to stop the fight and they both apologize to each other, Shion being in tears because of how Satoshi treated her. (Meakashi-hen)
Shion recalls a memory of Kasai telling her the rumors of people making canned human meat. (Meakashi-hen)
Shion recalls a memory of Keiichi running out of his house with the doll that he wanted to give her and Shion, knowing that she can't control herself anymore stabs him and he falls onto his knees, dropping the doll. (Meakashi-hen)
Shion recalls a memory where she holds onto Keiichi's arm, and walks with him to discuss about both herself and her sister and tells him that she will show him her sins. (Meakashi-hen)
Shion remembers the details about her father being a yakuza and who Kasai is. (Meakashi-hen)
Shion remembers talking about how they can make a miracle happen if they break down fate. (Minagoroshi-hen)
Shion remembers being forced to rip out her fingernails by her very own family. (Meakashi-hen)
Shion remembers walking side by side with Keiichi late at night after work and chats (read as: flirts) with him quite a bit as they go window shopping. (Watanagashi-hen)
Shion remembers faking crocodile tears in order to get someone to help her and she is then saved by someone (Satoshi) who actually protected her. (Meakashi-hen)
Shion remembers talking to Irie about how Satoshi joined the baseball team. (Meakashi-hen)
Shion remembers a conversation between herself and Keiichi + Rena where she "explains" (read as: makes up a bunch of stuff) her actions to them. (Meakashi-hen)
Shion remembers sneaking into the Saiguden with Takano and Keiichi and freaking out due to hearing loud stomping when Takano starts talking about Oyashiro-sama's curse. (Meakashi-hen)
Shion remembers her mom teasing both her and her sister by saying that Keiichi can have either of her daughters. (Minagoroshi-hen)
Shion remembers talking to Rena underneath the bus stop in the rain about Satoshi. (Meakashi-hen)

abilities

Hinamizawa Syndrome (as of 6/1/2018; removed from her at 6/17/2018)
Skillset to use guns (as of 9/17/2018)
THING

items

Shion's diary (it's blank until she starts remembering things that are written on it)
Shion's necklace
The Angel Mort uniform (as of 5/2/18)
AK-47 assault rifle
SVD Dragunov sniper rifle
Stun gun
AK-47 bullets (30)
Sniper rifle bullets (30)
Shock bullets (30)

appearance

Her aquamarine eyes (as of 12/4/17)
Her green hair (as of 12/24/17)
THING

Comments

( memory fifteen ) cw: child abuse + torture, brutal murder

[promisedyou]

► MEMORY. Shion remembers torturing Satoko in the torture chamber. (Meakashi-hen)

Shion: "Hey, everyone, are you all still alive?"

Kimiyoshi is hanging by the collar with his head up to the ceiling. He doesn't even move... maybe he's already dead.

Satoko is in a cross-shaped restraining table. She glares at me with red and swollen eyes. She must have been crying.
I wanted to put her on a special restraining table to pound nails into her hands, but Satoko is too small for that.

I walk up to Kimiyoshi and poke his body with my toe. There is no response.

Shion: "Kimiyoshi-ojisan, are you dead?"
Satoko: "Murderer... murderer...!"

Maybe Satoko witnessed Kimiyoshi's last moments.

I take a thick knife from the wall and stab Kimiyoshi with it. There is no response.

Shion: "Kimiyoshi-ojisan, If you're alive you better tell me, okay? You can't fool me."

I walk to the pulley that's hanging Kimiyoshi.

Shion: "This is your last chance. Are you alive? Let me know if you are..."

I pause just for a moment, then turn the pulley.

Kimiyoshi's body is up in the air now. It's swaying strangely. It looks more like a dead body now.

Satoko: "Shion-san... why are you doing this?"
Shion: "Hmm? ...Ah, I get it."

The door to the huge cave is still open.
I bet Satoko was talking to the one in the cell while I was gone.
That's how she knows my name. But actually, that name is wrong.

Shion: "No, I'm not Shion, I am the real Mion. The one you wall thought was Mion is Shion. It's kind of confusing, huh? If you don't get it, that's okay. Hee hee hee..."
Satoko: "How dare you... how dare you kill Rika...!!"

I let Satoko watch me take care of Rika's body.
Of course I let her see Rika's neck too.

Shion: "Furude Rika deserved it. She came over to kill me. I just fought back, that's all."
Satoko: "No way!!! Rika wouldn't do that!!!"
Shion: "If you don't believe me, that's fine. It's none of your business anyway."
Satoko: "What... are you going to do with me?"
Shion: "I'm going to kill you."

Satoko's eyes go wide. I'm sure she was expecting my answer, but she still look shocked.

I bet she didn't expect me to state it so plainly.
I hear a noise from the grate.
I also hear Shion's voice echoing in the huge cave.

Mion: "No, sis!! Don't kill Satoko!!"

I answer her clearly.

Shion: "Aha ha ha ha!!! Do you finally realize what you've done? Do you finally realize you didn't do anything to save Satoshi-kun, although you had the power to? That's why he was killed!! You ignored millions of chances to rescue Satoshi-kun!! That's right, that's your sin!!!"
Satoko: "Gyaaaaaahhhhh!!!"

Before I even finish my sentence, I stab Satoko's right arm.

Her blood starts to flow out.
......This is nothing compared to what happened to Furude Rika.

I screw the knife into Satoko's arm. She bites down hard, and she cries.

Mion: "Stop!! Don't kill Satoko!! Let her go!! I don't care what you do to me... but please, let Satoko go!!"

Why couldn't you say that for Satoshi-kun?
It's too late!!! I was the one screaming like you back then. But no matter how loudly I screamed, it was no use for reaching them, rescuing him, saving him!!
I want you to go through the same thing!!!

Satoko: "Ooo!! Gyahh!! Guhhh!!"

I stab Satoko's arm repeatedly.
But the knife keeps hitting her bone. It doesn't feel like I"m stabbing her flesh.

Mion: "Stop, Mion, stop Nee-san... stop, stop, stop!!!"
Shion: "Okay, Shion. How about this? I'll tell you how you can save Satoko. You apologize to me one thousand times. I'll let Satoko go when you are done. What do you think? I don't lie. If you really apologize one thousand times, I'll keep the promise. Well? What do you think?"
Mion: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm..."

Shion starts to apologize like a broken record.

She is so stupid and honest.
She doesn't even think of cheating.
I bet she is really going to count to one thousand.

I stab Satoko's wrist.
I feel something hard. I guess I either crushed her bone or scraped it.

It must have been extremely painful.
Satoko screams...
Shion's voice gets louder as if it's trying to overpower Satoko's scream.

Satoko: "Whaaaahhhh, wahhhhhhhh!!! Waaaaaahhhhh!!!!"
Shion: "Aha ha ha ha ha! All you do is cry to get what you want. You think your Nii-nii is going to come, knock me down, and rescue you, huh? Yeah, right!"

The knife is still in Satoko's wrist... I slide it towards her elbow!!!

Satoko: "Gyaahhhhhhh... gyahhhhh!!!"
Shion: "Satoko, can you hear me? Hey! Listen to me!!!"

I slap her face several times and make her look at me.

Shion: "Do you know what you've done? Do you know how your existence cornered Satoshi-kun?"
Satoko: "Nii-nii... Nii-nii..."
Shion: "That's right. That's all you did to him. Every time you cried, Satoshi-kun protected you. But have you ever thought of what kind of a burden you were to him? He wasn't a hero or a superman!!!"
Satoko: "Gyaahhhhh!!!!"
Shion: "He was just a normal human being, just like you!! Have you ever even thought of what he had to go through because of you?! No, you didn't!! You never even tried!!! You just let Satoshi-kun take care of you!! You just leeched off Satoshi-kun!! As he got injured for you, you just licked his blood and lived!! You are cursed. How could you still call his name?!! Huh?!?!"

Hah! Hah! Hah!!
After telling her what I've been wanting to tell her, I breathe roughly.

Shion: "Ha ha ha ha! You are going to pay for your sin now with my help. Cry as much as you want, scream as much as you want. And realize Satoshi-kun will never come rescue you. You cornered him, you made him disappear, you killed him!!!"

Satoko: "......! Gouhhhh! ..............."
Shion: "What? You don't feel anything in your right arm? Okay, then let's use your left arm."
Satoko: ".........Gyah! ......Ahhh!! .............."

I stab her left arm repeatedly and the blood flows out.
But Satoko's reaction isn't fun anymore.
She doesn't cry or scream like she did before.

That puts me in a bad mood. So I stab the back of her left hand and twist the knife.
But Satoko still just moans. She doesn't scream.

Shion: "......What's the matter? Are you trying not to scream so that you won't make me happy? Hee hee hee!! That's great, ha ha ha ha!!!"

Satoko stays calm and looks at me.

Satoko: "Yes......... that's right."
Shion: "...Huh...?"
Satoko: "I cornered him. ........That is why he disappeared. I already knew that on the day nii-nii disappeared."
Shion: ".........."
Satoko: "I wasn't...... strong enough. I depended on... Niinii. I'm sure...... it was hard on him too, but I couldn't stop. ...You are...... absolutely right about that. I have... no excuse."

Satoko doesn't sound sarcastic or as if she is trying to make me happy. She speaks so naturally.

Shion: "Hmm...... that's interesting. I never knew you already realized what you've done."
Satoko: "Nii-nii is coming back. He is coming back someday...... But when he does, ...I'm going to show how independent I am now. I don't need him anymore. I don't hide behind him anymore. I'm going to show him...... I am really independent..."
Shion: "Ha ha ha... ha ha ha!! When he comes back, huh?"

I stab Satoko's arm like crazy.
But Satoko doesn't even scream.

She bites down tightly and swallows her screams.

Satoko: "Nii-nii is coming back. I know he is!! I'm waiting!! And when he comes back, I'm going to apologize to him for depending on him too much. So I won't give up until that day comes!! I'll never depend on him again, ever!! No matter what kind of hardship I have to endure, I won't ask him to help me!! I won't cry, I won't scream!! If I cry, he'll come. That's why I'm going to endure by myself!!!"
Shion: "Damn you... what do you think you're saying?!!"
Satoko: "If it's fun to stab me, go ahead, stab me as much as you want!!! But if you think I'm going to cry for nii-nii, well, too bad. I will not cry. EVER!!! If you don't believe me, try it!!! Nii-nii is watching me. He is watching me endure. He sees that I'm not like I was before!!! And when he sees that, he is going to come back!!! Come on, try it!! I won't cry!!! Try to see how strong Houjou Satoko is!!!"

Shit, shit, shit!!!
I'm going to show her!!
Here, here, here!!


Satoko: "Nii-nii, you're watching me, right? I've become so strong... Nothing will bring me down... This is nothing. This won't make me cry. I won't cry for your help. I can endure this. I can endure this. I am going to endure this. This is nothing compared to what you had to go through for me!!"

Shit, shit, shit!!!
Why doesn't she feel the pain? Doesn't it hurt?
No, it can't be!! I'm stabbing her and the knife is in so deeply!
Her blood is flowing out, and I'm turning her flesh inside out!!
How can she still talk that way? Why doesn't she cry and scream?

After Satoko says what she wanted to say, she shuts her mouth. She doesn't say a word after that.

No matter how I stab her, twist the knife, rip her, drag her flesh out, she doesn't even make a sound.
What is this? This isn't the Satoko I know.
Satoko isn't strong like this.

If Satoko was this strong, she wouldn't have been a burden to Satoshi-kun.
Why wasn't she strong before?
It's too late. Everything is too late.
She didn't realize it in time!!

Her blood makes my hand slippery and I drop the knife.

Shion: "Hah, hah! Hah! Hah! ...Hah! Hah!! .....Hah!"

I'm bloody from head to toe.

Satoko is still enduring the pain.
She is enduring this cruelty so she can display her strength.

I couldn't defeat Satoko.

I couldn't crush her strength.

Satoko achieved her goal.
Satoko became independent so she doesn't need Satoshi-kun anymore.

She believed Satoshi-kun would come back one day.
She looked forward to a day when she could show her brother how strong she has become.

But Satoshi-kun didn't see that. Instead, I, who never even thought that Satoshi-kun would come back, was the one who witnessed her strength.

What was I thinking?
I thought Satoshi-kun was dead. No, I assumed he was.

...Why did I?

I never even ...thought of waiting for him.

I didn't believe he would come back.
I didn't wait.
...I tried to avenge him. ......But I guess what I did was to forget about him.

But Satoko was different.
She never even thought he was dead.
No, maybe she did a little.
But she waited.
She waited for the day when she could show him the brand new her. She waited patiently...

What about me?
I didn't do anything.
I wanted to forget about my sadness so I tried to find my enemy.
I became a demon, using Satoshi-kun's revenge as an excuse, so I didn't have to think like a human.

I lost.

I couldn't endure the pain of waiting for Satoshi-kun, so I chose to become a demon.
In other words, I got rid of my soul, the soul that loved Satoshi-kun.
That's like getting rid of Satoshi-kun.

Satoko won.

Her mouth is relaxed now.

Her eyelids are half shut and I can see her eyes a little.
Her eyes look like she's dreaming about something happy.

Satoshi-kun ....is there, in her eyes.

Satoko endured...... until Satoshi-kun came for her........