★ mio's journal.
Dec. 6th, 2017 06:37 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
promisedyouAfter all the Retrospec craziness that's started to happen, I've decided to start a diary to chronicle everything, including any information I've learned, any memories I recall and just using this as a regular diary. So if you've found this and you're not the owner of this notebook, I either threw this away thinking that it was no longer useful or something happened to me. If, in the off chance it's the latter: please help this poor girl find the answers. I don't want all this hard work to go in vain.
However, if you're seeing this because you've stolen it or decided to sneak a peek, know very well that I will find out and you will receive proper punishment, especially if you go further than this page. So I would suggest closing this book right now and backing away if you don't want to suffer a horrible fate. ♪
12/1
I just bought this notebook at the beginning of the month while trying to figure out what to get for others on Christmas. I have a bunch of gift shopping that needs to be done before the 24th, so this reply might end up being a little long. But that's fine, I don't mind at all.
Anyway, I've been on Retrospec for a little under a month now and here's what I've found out so far:
First, do not mess with the Retrospec mailbox. Weird things apparently happen - I've gotten pranked with water and even teleported. It was not fun.
Two, senses can be messed with. We've lost several colors before (blue and green) and now taste is gone and it sucks. :(
I just bought this notebook at the beginning of the month while trying to figure out what to get for others on Christmas. I have a bunch of gift shopping that needs to be done before the 24th, so this reply might end up being a little long. But that's fine, I don't mind at all.
Anyway, I've been on Retrospec for a little under a month now and here's what I've found out so far:
First, do not mess with the Retrospec mailbox. Weird things apparently happen - I've gotten pranked with water and even teleported. It was not fun.
Two, senses can be messed with. We've lost several colors before (blue and green) and now taste is gone and it sucks. :(
Three, Leon's now on this application. Along with several others that I've ran across here and there, although I don't know them very well.
Four, and I'll be using this notebook to compile them, but apparently you can get memories of a past life. Kotone's already told me that she's had a relatively simple memory of playing games and dealing with traps with friends, but mine... haven't been so nice.
I'll go over my memories real quick here, two I recalled last month, the other from today.
The first thing I 'remembered', I guess you can say is the feeling of wanting to die. That I thought about ending my life. And I spoke about someone named Satoshi-kun, and how I couldn't go to heaven. Does heaven even exist? I don't know.
Four, and I'll be using this notebook to compile them, but apparently you can get memories of a past life. Kotone's already told me that she's had a relatively simple memory of playing games and dealing with traps with friends, but mine... haven't been so nice.
I'll go over my memories real quick here, two I recalled last month, the other from today.
The first thing I 'remembered', I guess you can say is the feeling of wanting to die. That I thought about ending my life. And I spoke about someone named Satoshi-kun, and how I couldn't go to heaven. Does heaven even exist? I don't know.
I thought that I'd be going deep into hell, but why? Did the former 'me' do something horrible? It felt like it. That I needed to do something drastic, a way to end my life properly for my sins. I'm kind of scared... of the former 'me'. I hope Kotone never gets any memories that are like this. They're horrible.
The second memory I have is just as gruesome. It's information I found out, about the death of a construction site manager who got murdered and mutilated. And how a part of the body, a severed right arm... hadn't been found. That's really scary, if you ask me.
The last memory is something I just recalled today. I spoke with someone - apparently, she was 'my' mother, along with a strange man. I don't know his name, though.
The second memory I have is just as gruesome. It's information I found out, about the death of a construction site manager who got murdered and mutilated. And how a part of the body, a severed right arm... hadn't been found. That's really scary, if you ask me.
The last memory is something I just recalled today. I spoke with someone - apparently, she was 'my' mother, along with a strange man. I don't know his name, though.
She called me by another name... 'Shion'.
I wonder how that's spelled in Japanese. There's many different ways to spell it, aren't there? But if I took a part of my own name, my current one, and maybe there's a combination that works. I'll have to find that out later.
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12/3
Aquamarine eyes. Just like the mother I had in those 'memories'. I wonder if I'll have green hair, too? Guess I'll have to find out later.
Things have been weird. And I'm not talking heels coming out of eggs weird or monsters actually showing up strange. There have been bats flying around with mistletoe, and I decided to help someone out. I bet you can't guess who it was! ♥
I wonder how that's spelled in Japanese. There's many different ways to spell it, aren't there? But if I took a part of my own name, my current one, and maybe there's a combination that works. I'll have to find that out later.
12/3
Aquamarine eyes. Just like the mother I had in those 'memories'. I wonder if I'll have green hair, too? Guess I'll have to find out later.
Things have been weird. And I'm not talking heels coming out of eggs weird or monsters actually showing up strange. There have been bats flying around with mistletoe, and I decided to help someone out. I bet you can't guess who it was! ♥
It was Leon. It's really embarrassing to talk about what happened but I promised myself I would write it down so I don't forget. He actually kissed me! It's pretty surprising, since apparently he thought that I never kissed anybody before...
It makes me kind of happy, though. He's cute and really fun to tease, too. I bet if I told any of his friends they'd probably make fun of him. I don't blame them, though; he's such an easy target. I bet Li would get really angry at me if I told him that I kissed his cousin, too. He's young, though, so he'll probably get over that phase where he's a grumpy wolf all the time. At least, I hope so.
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12/4
Chores for charity! I'm in two groups.
It makes me kind of happy, though. He's cute and really fun to tease, too. I bet if I told any of his friends they'd probably make fun of him. I don't blame them, though; he's such an easy target. I bet Li would get really angry at me if I told him that I kissed his cousin, too. He's young, though, so he'll probably get over that phase where he's a grumpy wolf all the time. At least, I hope so.
12/4
Chores for charity! I'm in two groups.
One of them is with Leon, the other is with another guy I've never met. I wonder if I could tease him a bit? ☆
What's really embarrassing though is the fact that Leon said he liked them: my aquamarine eyes. I don't know what to think, really. I honestly should be going back to contacts so that it'll be more difficult for someone to tell me and Kotone apart, but... I kind of like the individuality, just a little bit. Is it selfish of me to want that? Just like how I don't want to be the heir of a stupid canned meat company? I just want to be a normal girl. To fall in love like others do. Instead of having to push myself to find a suitable suitor to take over the company for me.
I don't know what it's like to fall in love at all. I want to, though. As myself: as Mio. It kind of scares me... if somehow, "Shion" fell in love with someone already.
What's really embarrassing though is the fact that Leon said he liked them: my aquamarine eyes. I don't know what to think, really. I honestly should be going back to contacts so that it'll be more difficult for someone to tell me and Kotone apart, but... I kind of like the individuality, just a little bit. Is it selfish of me to want that? Just like how I don't want to be the heir of a stupid canned meat company? I just want to be a normal girl. To fall in love like others do. Instead of having to push myself to find a suitable suitor to take over the company for me.
I don't know what it's like to fall in love at all. I want to, though. As myself: as Mio. It kind of scares me... if somehow, "Shion" fell in love with someone already.
Will her feelings soon become mine? I don't know.
Maybe I already like someone though I guess that's something I'll have to figure out in time. I hate dealing with this existential crisis.
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12/15
Not much happened besides dealing with the chores and a bunch of weird stuff in the mall before today. It's almost Christmas, so I have to go shopping soon though. I know what to get everyone, so it shouldn't be too hard. I saw some carolers at home and apparently someone who's a god in another person's body.
I hope what I told him helped but it might not have.
Not much happened besides dealing with the chores and a bunch of weird stuff in the mall before today. It's almost Christmas, so I have to go shopping soon though. I know what to get everyone, so it shouldn't be too hard. I saw some carolers at home and apparently someone who's a god in another person's body.
I hope what I told him helped but it might not have.
Also I talked to Li a bit about some things. I don't know if my words really got through to him, but... at least I tried.
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12/17
I'm pretty surprised that I managed to actually win something... although what I won was something that I wasn't really sure what to use it for, since gift cards aren't really my thing, and I have most of the things that I could ever ask for. But that's okay. I also got to ask Leon to dance with me. It makes me really happy. And I got to tease Li, too. ☆
He really likes that girl, it's so obvious!
12/17
I'm pretty surprised that I managed to actually win something... although what I won was something that I wasn't really sure what to use it for, since gift cards aren't really my thing, and I have most of the things that I could ever ask for. But that's okay. I also got to ask Leon to dance with me. It makes me really happy. And I got to tease Li, too. ☆
He really likes that girl, it's so obvious!
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